As I continue on my journey of not settling for any guy,,, my clock is ticking. I often reminisce on a guy I will call "Vincent". Now granted I was never in an official relationship with him, he is the longest relationship I've ever had. I honestly didn't appreciate the little things he did while I was with him. I never had to ask for quality time or wonder why I hadn't heard from him in 3 days. I would give my left arm to have that comfort again. He was very attractive.. tall, "good" hair, atheletic, in college and good behind closed doors. But the fact remains he wasn't the best for me since we no longer speak.
The issue now is, no one has seemed to measure up to him or surpass him. I was younger when I was with him so some things that weren't important then are major issues now, like children and where to live. But those things aren't even relevent since I can't get to the point with a guy where they would be a deciding factor. I seem to fall into this never ending cycle of liking a guy who is vaguely interested in me or not ready to settle down and the guys who like me, I'm vaguely interested in, if at all.
So I begin to ask the question was Vincent the best I'll ever have? The answer honestly scares me because if he was... the future is bleak at best. What should I do? Just continue as usual, change my standards? What do you do when no one measures up to the one before? Is it all a mind game or was he the best? I am over Vincent so thats no the issue as many would think, but he did set a standard, which wasn't very high... yet no one can pass it.
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